Body by Starbucks

I have been (mostly) vegan for months--although I have been making exceptions for some foods I shouldn't be having anyway. Starbucks scones, I am talking about you. And this is your motherfing swan song.

In the past, I have somewhat pooh-poohed the whole concept of food addiction but have come to the sad realization that for me, my compulsion for sugar and caffeine is the driving force that is responsible for my recent considerable weight gain (that and lack of self control and low-level depression, hooray!).

I shudder (shudder, I say!) to think how much money I've wasted at the Starbucks drive through. It was part of my morning routine and that blueberry scone was a little piece of heaven on my drive into work.

When I really tried to sit down and think about the real payoff that was driving the drive through compulsion, a couple of factors rose to the top.

1. Distraction. Yep, for the few brief moments it took me to gobble up that delightful mass of sugar, flour and butter all was right in the world (as the unburned calories started to settle on my already massive frame)
2. Hunger. Duh. If I had a proper breakfast, scones were not even on my radar. 
3. Compulsion/habit. Boo. I should have been stronger than that.

But I'm done. I am really done. I am going to be off all caffeine by 6/15. My car will not (dis)grace a Starbucks drive-through again. I am dreading the caffeine withdrawal but it's a small price to pay for the many good things that are likely to come from this change.