Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since I posted. I guess that is a good indicator of my mental state. I didn't realize how low I was and how it was impacting me. Turns out that I was both vitamin D deficient AND anemic, which can both affect mood. I'm taking supplements and have had my meds bumped up.
I didn't realize one of the effects of one of the medicines at a normal dose can also affect weight. I was taking 1/3 of the recommended dosage. My mood didn't improve after we did the first bump, and since going up further in dosage, I've noticed it has definitely impacted my appetite and interest in food. That's one of the first things to give me hope about being able to lose weight in a loooong time. I'm down about 4 pounds so far.
My EAP therapist thinks that my lack of motivation for exercise is tied to the depression. We shall see. I have gone out for walks/runs 3 times in the last 4 days, which is a huge improvement. I also quit caffeine two weeks ago (finally!). I suffered through a few mornings in the mountains on a camping trip, but taking myself out of my normal environment definitely helped. Hooray for baby steps.
