It has gotten crazy hot here in the last couple of days. I have ONE t-shirt that covers my chubby arms to the elbow. My hot weather outfit has become my black exercise capris and that damn black t-shirt. I'm happy the school year is almost over and the kids aren't in summer sports so I don't have to see the same parents over and over again with me in the same outfit. Mortifying. I suppose I could shop, but it's SO hard to find t-shirts down to the elbow.Last year this time I was 188, down 25 pounds from where I am now after three months on the Medifast program. One torn calf muscle and one exercise habit broken and here I am, one year later, right where I started.
I'm getting desperate. I'm sick of inhabiting this fat suit and I'm sick of feeling like this is just my lot in life. I'm sick of thinking about this and feeling bad about this all the fricking time. I can change this. I can damn sure try harder.
I didn't lose one pound last month. I certainly didn't follow anything I outlined in my last blog post. I now feel like I have to force the issue. When I did Medifast there was no big build up, no huge motivation, no great feeling of inspiration and hope. All I did was (mostly) follow the program and behaved my way to success. All you have to do is do it.
So...here's the dealio:
The Big, Hairy, Audacious Goals
- 150 by my 45th birthday (1.75 lbs/week average//7 pounds a month)
- Sub 6 hour marathon in October
- Feeling good about myself again (freer, lighter, more confident)
- Confidence to find new job and provide better for my family
- Lift 2x a week
- Walk/run at least 3x a week
- 10,000 steps a day (or equivalent) 6 days a week
- Spin 1-2 times/week
- Mat pilates?
- Create plan with 3 breakfast options and 6 lunch/dinner options
- Maintain food journal for next month
Other
- Blog daily for one month
Off to work on a more formal exercise and diet plan. Boring as all hell but necessary. I will post it because I need to be fricking accountable.
